Gratitude? Fake it til ya make it
I’ve got to do something different. I was happier when I was giving thanks for what I had everyday. And I am always dumbstruck when things change abruptly; that seems to be how it works for me. Latest example: hadn’t worked in four years to the day, wasn’t looking for a job but needed income badly and two weeks later I was working as if I’d never been away and I barely had time to mourn staying home with my baby.
I’m feeling like another abrupt change may happen soon so I want to give thanks for what I have now.
I am deeply grateful for my beautiful son. I can’t imagine my life without him, no matter how I long for my old days of freedom, I love him so much.
I am grateful for my good friends. They saved me today. I am grateful to have people around who can remind me of who I’ve been and who I still am.
I’m grateful for my iPhone and for the app that allows me to continue blogging even without a computer. I am grateful for this technology and all of the people who made it happen.
I am grateful I have a job and for the chance to screw up. I am grateful they have allowed me some time to relearn despite the fact I may not be able to strap it on the way they want me to.
I am grateful for my parents. I miss them so much. I wish they could have met my son.
I’m grateful for the show teen mom. Even though I’m in my 40s, I relate more than I would have imagined.
